The Last Update

So...this is it. I'm less than two months from the final day, and basically, after I made the new list, I didn't look at it again. I have no plans to scramble to finish as many as I can before the last 50 days are up. So, in the end, my inability to complete things or see them all the way through got the best of me. But, you know what? I'm okay with that.

The goal of this blog originally was to find myself again, to overcome difficulties, and in the end, for me to come out the other side a stronger, wiser person than I would have been if I hadn't done the Day Zero project. And that? That I did, and it's better than I ever imagined.

I'm writing again, regularly. I started a schedule of writing at least 100 words every day, just to get into a habit. The more I try, the easier it gets, and the more words I can do in a sitting. My eventual goal is to have an hour aside a day to write, but I need to make a habit of just writing daily first. I've also rekindled a love of reading I had lost.

I've got a better relationship with my dad and grandparents, even though my grandma isn't getting on the phone anymore. She's too senile to remember much of the conversation, and too deaf to hear. They tell me every time I call that they appreciate hearing from me, though.

I have a house, and the frustrations that come with it. We're taking them one at a time. I remain incapable of keeping plants alive.

I have come to terms with the fact that I am not an artist in the drawing sense. Maybe I could do classes and things, but as it is, I'll stick with my writing and let my more artistically-inclined friends handle the drawing.

I'm working on my fears one at a time. I've actually managed to get myself mostly over my fear of needles, if you can believe that. I agreed to get a series of shots my doctor suggested (not required, but useful), and by the last one, it was not a problem for me. No stalling, no hesitation, just in, out, done. We'll see if I can get over the fear of flying enough to start taking trips outside of the country. I need to get myself a passport first, though.

So, basically, I'm happy. I've found the parts of my life that were missing and am working on making the puzzle that is me bigger, more solidified. If that makes sense. As far as this blog goes, I'm calling it here. End result, 55/101 (I went yard sale-ing with my mother last fall, and I've kept up with my weekly calls to my dad and grandparents). All in all, could be better, but I think I did fairly well. It's been a fun ride, so thanks for joining me on it.